Currently Listening Sarina Paris By Sarina Paris see related

This is what’s really gone through my mind today..for those people who’ve been worried all day..

There are no words that describe how I feel…it’s been 8 weeks since the last time I saw him…and every time I think about him I just get flashbacks that hurt…a lot. Honestly up until this point I thought I could handle all of this and I still believe I can but it’s just one of those days. You guys have noticed I was rather moody and bitchy but hey it comes with the territory..I’m sorry if I acted as so outwardly to anyone I guess I’m just going through the whole “Anger” phase because I’m mad that he’s not here and everything I think of, I connect it to him. People just make me angry because of how they are and other people just hurt me because of how they treat me and god knows this whole thing with boys just makes my head go haywire and then there’s school…I really can’t handle all of this at once there‘s so many things going in my life which I really don‘t want to face but I have to…I mean I‘m not asking for anyone‘s pity because God knows I hate hearing “I‘m sorry about your brother yackity yack yack…I hate being the center of attention for the wrong reasons or because of sympathy, I mean the thought is great but it irks me when people are like oh yeah that’s anjelica she lost her brother… but I am dealing with the issues everyone my age has to deal with and some …I’m only human and I know my limitations and what I can and cannot handle. Everything’s colliding in front of my face and its like a biiiiiig fiasco in which I have no control over. I guess it’s only by nature that I break down and almost have a freaking anxiety attack…it releases the stress I guess…but again…I’m sorry if I was mean to anyone but like a certain someone I know when I’m moody and pissy if you say crap to me I will say things back and be mean about them…can’t help…some of you guys know me well enough that when I’m mean…I am mean…so don’t take things personally….and PLEASE stop freaking out when I cry…I mean c’mon…you know who you are and I love you for watching out for me (j.c.g.) I’m gonna cry…it helps…and hey you can’t blame me hun I haven’t cried in front of you guys since the funeral….I’ll be okay I promise quit worrying because I know you worry about me enough YOU need to focus on YOUR grades and YOUR life god knows you’re busy as well….you know I’m not the type to do anything stupid…..a. I’m not that stupid…b. I know how great I’ve got it. And c. I’m too much of a chicken to try anything…

Loving You Always and Forever (Chi Thu)

"Still Fly"

Anji

 History Sub: shh. if you guys don't watch you'll miss a love scene!

*room goes quite*

Class: . . . . . we're waiting. . . . . .

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Krista: . . . .they're not gonna do it now are they?. . . 'cuz then it'd be rape. . . .they're getting violent. . . . .

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Blair: oo! shhh! here it comes. . .

Someone: yeah they're gonna do it in public.....

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Someone:....that wasn't a love scene..I thought they were hugging!!

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Loving You Always and Forever (Chi Thu)

"Still Fly"

Anji

"Where's the teacher! I gots to go pee!!!"

haha...i'm not gonna explain but ^_^ haha American History is fun...but anyhow I really don't feel like entrying except for the fact that people at seton are already hyped up about Harry Potter....

....*squishy squishy* ^__- jigs

^_^ XD XD XD

...cant forget the twins of course!

Loving You Always And Forever (Chi Thu)

"still fly"

Anji

Currently Listening A Walk to Remember By Original Soundtrack see related

har-har..no more history test..and i think i did good! and apparently I've been deemed "curve killer" along with sara fraley and kirsten....yeah haha like I'm any competition for those genuises...I really don't like it when they think they're so NOT intelligent....blah.....

anyhow...so i couldn't sleep last nite...so i got to school and spent an enormous portion of the day just lost in a little daze...kinda weird but in french i find that miss lauren threm's birthday is friday...haha..yay ^_^ and when soon she's gonna be a PEDOPHILE...b/c he boyfriend will be underaged...ha...funny funny..oh yeah i was trying to explain the meaning of Pedofile, like actually breaking it down into root words, for jill..and OHHH MY GOD..i was about to kill her...*hehe luv you anyways*...i'm like okay.."Phile" or "Philic" means love..and pedo - kids...and jills like....yeah Love Kids..but then isn't that a good thing?....^_^ haha i kinda got annoyed but we had a few good t-shirt ideas!

@%*! - Excuse My French.

-Saucisson- ........."It's a French Thing, You wouldn't understand."

-Occupe-toi es d'ognions.-

and oh yes...

I MISS THUY TOO!!! a.k.a. Josie? haha i can't see you as Josie...you're always Thuy to me

and when you wake up
everything is going to be fine
i guarantee that you wake up in a better place
and in a better time
so you're tired of living
and you feel like you might give in
well don't
it's not your time

~ A Better Place, A Better Time : Streetlight Manifesto

Loving You Always and Forever (Chi Thu)

"still fly"

Anji

Currently Listening Move Along By The All-American Rejects see related

SCHOOL.....

SUCKS TO YOUR ASS-MAR!!!!!

so last nite...i couldn't sleep whatsoever...then i get to school and Ally's like..WHOA..are you sleepy or something? and I'm like yeah i couldn't sleep and she says well I can tell..you have bags under your eyes...and i look in my mirror and its like...whooooa...ha yeah but then during a bell i was all slap happy...laughing alot but thats where it stops...in french everyone said i sounded so different..that i sounded raelly tired....HA!...later on in the day I fell asleep in Social Justice until Ally poked me and I was dozing in and out during Bio 2....and in history...reviewing for the HUGE TEST TOMORROW...i couldn't get anythign right....WHATSOEVER...but I get home and I'm like cool I can calm down for an hour or two and then study..but NO my mom forgets about Alex so I have to go pick him up then we go visit Chris and then check on our house...so we get home about an hour later...then my mom keeps making me run around getting crap for her and then i finally eat dinner..by then its like 6:15 - 6:30...so time for studying..i start on Physics..but nooope too sleepy so i take a 15 nap....15 minutes turned into almost an hour..ha so i was like WTH!!! i get up right away and start studying but im all groggy so i go splash water on my face and try to concentrate...im not sure how prepared i am...but hopefully whatever im coming down with won't hit me until wednesday...

ohh yeah

looking at him makes me happpppy....^_^

LOVING YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER ( CHI THU)

"STILL FLY"

Anji

*Theory*

When I and #^@%* (as melissa puts it) have kids they're gonna be super-evil genuises and gonna rule the world and have many minions...but Kirsten is like...BUT what if since you two are like "genuises" *Not! at least im not at least* what if your kids are STUPID.... that just put a HUGE damper on my World Domination Plans....argh i want minions